Today's post was going to be very positive and light and kind of airy, because it's been the whole month dedicated to love. Today is the 31st of July and I wanted to make a short summary of this month.
But I was disappointed with myself today. I didn't get up at 6 a.m., I didn't go jogging - so I couldn't meet my own expectations. I was so eager to wake up at the right time that I kept thinking about it the entire night and I fell asleep only at 4:40 in the morning. So when the alarm went off an hour and a half later, I turned it off and decided to give myself another 5 seconds - and I woke up again only around 8 o'clock. I felt very upset about it but didn't have time to think it over because I had to get ready and run to work. Then at work I had lunch and dinner with the people whose opinions and views on the life and work are very different from mine. Personally I don't understand how you can work with someone if you think that he/she is the stupidest person ever. And I felt this adulation and flattery and untruthfulness and there are several people like these in the office. And I didn't say anything about that, I kept my opinion to myself - but by the end of the day I was feeling miserable. I came home, I let the tears come out but then I laughed for 2 minutes. I know it should have been at least 5 minutes, but I just wasn't in the mood - this is again lack of pursuasiveness from my side. So, you see it wasn't the best day for me. But I have thought about it - and decided to love myself anyway. Even though I didn't get up as planned, I stuck to the 2nd part of this plan - I didn't eat anything sweet. Even though I didn't say my opinion about the colleagues - I still respect myself because every person is different, it is his/her own choice to think and to work the way that is best for him/her. If they want my opinion, I will let them know. Otherwise, I will make friends with other colleagues, the ones that inspire me, like my manager. Even though I didn't laugh for 5 minutes - I still did a great job to recover from today, I let the tears out and then I replaced them with laughter. So today I make a conscious choice to love myself. And that is the advice of the day:
But I was disappointed with myself today. I didn't get up at 6 a.m., I didn't go jogging - so I couldn't meet my own expectations. I was so eager to wake up at the right time that I kept thinking about it the entire night and I fell asleep only at 4:40 in the morning. So when the alarm went off an hour and a half later, I turned it off and decided to give myself another 5 seconds - and I woke up again only around 8 o'clock. I felt very upset about it but didn't have time to think it over because I had to get ready and run to work. Then at work I had lunch and dinner with the people whose opinions and views on the life and work are very different from mine. Personally I don't understand how you can work with someone if you think that he/she is the stupidest person ever. And I felt this adulation and flattery and untruthfulness and there are several people like these in the office. And I didn't say anything about that, I kept my opinion to myself - but by the end of the day I was feeling miserable. I came home, I let the tears come out but then I laughed for 2 minutes. I know it should have been at least 5 minutes, but I just wasn't in the mood - this is again lack of pursuasiveness from my side. So, you see it wasn't the best day for me. But I have thought about it - and decided to love myself anyway. Even though I didn't get up as planned, I stuck to the 2nd part of this plan - I didn't eat anything sweet. Even though I didn't say my opinion about the colleagues - I still respect myself because every person is different, it is his/her own choice to think and to work the way that is best for him/her. If they want my opinion, I will let them know. Otherwise, I will make friends with other colleagues, the ones that inspire me, like my manager. Even though I didn't laugh for 5 minutes - I still did a great job to recover from today, I let the tears out and then I replaced them with laughter. So today I make a conscious choice to love myself. And that is the advice of the day:
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