Thursday, April 18, 2013

Change tactics

Me vs. Sugar
Battle # 1 (this month)
Score 0:1
Ok, it was quite a quick victory of sugar.
I lasted two days.
Then it became hot and I wanted an ice-cream
And I am going to my Mom's in a couple of weeks anyways
(and I hardly doubt that I will resist the temptetaion)
So it is better that I stop now and start over again after I come back.
So the sugar found the way to talk me out of stopping eating it.

No it is time for a new challange.
Not a challange.
A new habbit.
Which will then be combined with non-sugar life.
And it is to walk.
In the very morning.
The first hing I do is go out for a walk.
 I call it 'walk out'.
Tomorrow morning.
My alarm is already set.
Hope I'll have enough will power to get up.
I believe in myself.
I can do it.
I'll let you you know how it went.

Monday, April 15, 2013


Love, love, love spring! I love the sun and love to feel that everything comes back to life.
So do I. Come back to life.
Continue to live.
And I have a new decision.

I do not want to be a sugar addict anymore.
I come to realize that it influences me a lot.
Me, my mood.
Me, my mood, people around me.
Me, my mood, people around me, close people.
I do not want to be indifferent to people who are close to me.
I do not want my mood influence our relationship.
I remember when I didn't eat sugar for a month.
I felt alive.
I felt happy all the time.
Now I think sugar will make me happy.
But that's not true.

So it is time.
Time to say no to sugar.
It is not gonna be easy.
I was a good girl all day today, for example.
Until I came home...
Than I had Coca-Cola and cookies.
That didn't make me happy.
Made me miserable instead.
I have thought of an experimen, that I hope will help me stay sugar-free -
Every time I have something sugarry I will put aside 500 rubles.
I will give it my sister to keep it.
I hope it will wok.

Anywho, I am full of hope and energy.
It's time to revive!